Stuff in my head

As I am sitting here, I know I am not 'ok'. I am extremely depressed and emotional.
Last week my boss went out with me to clients. He spoke to them as if I wasn't even there. He interrupted me all the time, made little jokes that only included him and the client. He had to monitor me to see if I do my job correctly, but while I did my presentations, he didn't even look in my direction, he looked so bored and at some point I thought that I said something extremely bad. But I know I didn't.

He drove with me, and he looked at his watch all the time, made calls to get finance for his son's car and studies. He never gave me any idea if I did well or not. I tried to ask, but he was blunt. It's 4 days later and still no feedback.

On Monday I am going to our yearly planning conference and I have to be in his company for 3 days!! Its rediculous.
It's been 2 years, and for all that time I had to put up with his little stabs at me.
I have to make a decision to leave for another job or stay. Sometimes I think I want to stay and irritate him till he end up in a institution, but I know I am not that kind of person. I will rather leave. I've tried standing my ground, but that intimidated him too much and got me into a lot of trouble.
My best revenge will be to stay and get promoted, but that seems out the question as he will be my reference for a long time. If I leave and make it big, that will shut him and his kind up.

Recession

The recession has got to me too...Last month I got paid, but the end of January I will not get paid. that is the joys of working on commission.
I feel so despondant. Tomorrow I have to go to work, and I am looking for an excuse not to.